Holidays

I thought it was just me. This year Thanksgiving could have been just another day. We at the traditional meal, but no extended family and one son missing. I just couldn't get myself interested.

Christmas. I love christmas. I love the tree, the outside decorations (although I don't do them anymore) the inside decorations, the 50 million bascillion cookie recipies. This year. nothing. could be just another day. Have done a little shopping and will get the rest done this week. Just saw in a comic that there are 19 days left. Haven't even thought about a tree and quite frankly am not even interested in getting one. what's the matter with me?

Then I thought it was just me and I see that other people are just not getting excited about it either. Is it the economy? maybe. That our families are changing dynamics? maybe. has the comercialism finally reared its ugly head over the top and we're just done? maybe. None of these seem to be the answer either. I wish I could get over it though. I want to be happy for christmas. I also want to see my son in the army too but don't think that is happening either. Maybe if I get the tree up and decorated. Or at least put the lights in the window which I always do on thanksgiving. Maybe I'll just curl up in a box for the rest of the month. and I think I want my mom. Yeah, crawling into her lap right now would be a good thing. And how worried/shocked would my 80 somthing mom be if her 50 some daughter just crawled into her lap? well, that one just made me smile.